And What Gift Would A Dwarf Ask Of The Elves ? / There And Back Again V

The fights in Osgiliath are getting harder and harder ... every day on the field is an agony for body and soul. After each night of sleeping in my tent on the field i am glad that I am still alive. But the losses of men every day are terribly! I want to fight Sauron and his creatures - to protect Gondor´s children and women - but so many brave men have to die ... most of them have been good friends to me for such a long time! I can´t believe it. Yes, i am sensitively. Maybe i am not strong enough for those never ending fights. But in the end it is only Sauron´s freakin mental terror!
I can remember one Orc today who stepped over the corpses of his dead buddies, bawled and ran towards me. I took my sword and in those few seconds after i speared him and while he spitted lots of blood, he suddenly began to laugh and to sneer at me ... i didn´t know what he meant but i snorted: "If you want to embarrass me, it won´t work because i will fucking destroy you!!!" And i cut his throat with one aggressive move. (later Faramir remembered that orcs don´t even understand the language of Gondor...)

I am thinking of my beloved brother Boromir again. I miss him so bad! I remembered one touching scene from childhood: i was lying in my bed - i guess i was about 5 years old... - and Boromir told me an old fairytale from Gondor (he often even sang me lullabies!). When he finished i looked at him and he said: "what do you wish, pumpkin?" "One hug and two kisses" i answered. Boromir laughed and he hugged me and gave me two kisses. *Faramir grinning to himself*
I wonder if my brother is alright and if he is still with the elves (if he found the way to Rivendell) ... *sigh*

Faramir is cursing the Orcs @ 09:20 p.m.
Friday, March 7, 2003

Aragorn came over to the corner where I was sitting and tried to be friendly. Feh! He didn't notice that there was no food left for me either. But I won't talk about it, it's embarassing. If they find out that the Steward of Gondor behaves like a sissy because of an apple...
Yes, I left, because I...um...forgot to brush my teeth! I answered quickly. See? I gave him a broad smile and pointed at my teeth, but Aragorn just raised an eyebrow and looked at me with suspicion.
Don't look at me like that! I...I don't want to take the ring, if that is STILL your problem! It was just a joke up on Caradhras. And now I'm in a bad mood because I had no sleep last night...I am haunted by nightmares now and then. Like my baby brother.
When I spoke the last words, I suddenly had to think of Faramir and got carried away a bit. I wonder how he's doing down in Minas Tirith...
Boromir...everything alright? Aragorn asked and looked at me as if I was insane or something. I noticed that my eyes were filled with tears. Yes, I am alright! Who said real men don't cry? I jumped up and strode away from the camp. I'm emotional, so what? *sob*

Boromir drama queen @ 05:38 p.m.
Friday, March 7, 2003

Legolas and Aragorn came to join our little feast. They looked happier than usual. Legolas at least. He came to sit beside me and I clapped him on the back. (YES! I wiped my hands!!! No worries...) Well...not for long! Frodo (+ his nasty hands) give his clean shirt a tap. Legolas didn't mind...hm... Elves aren't that bad, I shrug. During the breakfast I enjoyed the safe and merry surroundings of Lorien for a last time...We were leaving the next day...I laughed and joked with them. I told them one of my favourite Dwarf jokes..."There was an elf and he had 10 elven jewel in Moria...When he came out of Moria...how much did he have? ........ None! Because he saw Mithril!" I laughed so hard...and they joined me ater 3 seconds...It was so funny I swear...*others were fake laughing and looking at each other weird behind Gimli's back, but Gimli doesn't know* Surprisingly, Legolas wasn't hurt... :) I told some other jokes and gave funny witty remarks. I am very funny. Yes I am. Aragorn laughed a couple of times... 2 times, but that is more than once. But he was smiling alot. Boromir suddenly left...what is his problem...Past-Legolas-attitude-Jr. *cough* Choked on food from laughing at Hobbit jokes...mines are funnier tho...

Gimli + Fellowship + breakfast @ 06:21 p.m.
Friday, March 7, 2003

Thank the gods we're leaving soon. As much as Lórien is a wonderful place, I can't stay here much longer. Even if the Ring seems less heavy here, it gets heavier in my mind each day that passes. Each day, it becomes harder not to be tempted to wear it...

Frodo wants to leave @ 05:29 p.m.
Thursday, March 6, 2003

Having breakfast with the Fellowship was quite nice. Especially with the Hobbits. They may be naïve, but it's always good to travel with them, because they help relieve the pressure with their funny jokes and comments. Gimli is quite funny too.

I think all the Fellowship has grown quite close, except for Boromir. Half the time I don't know what's he's thinking, and the rest of the time, I see his eyes fixed on the Ring, or hear him talking about going to Minas Tirith.

Boromir was waiting for us at the tents. Boromir, are you ok ? You left the table too quickly. I asked him. I don't want to see any of the members of the group angry at the rest.

Aragorn felt good at breakfast @ 04:59 p.m.
Thursday, March 6, 2003

The Hobbits are really nice and kind. I can't help but smile when I'm around them.

We finished our breakfast, talking and laughing. Boromir suddenly left, looking very annoyed. Why is he like that ? He should try to be a little more friendly with us. Yes, I also can say that about me lately...

I remember how Boromir talked about the Ring and looked at It during the Council of Elrond. He even tried to take It. Maybe he is still as tempted as he was at that moment ? Or maybe it is because Aragorn doesn't want to go to Minas Tirith, at least for the moment, as he told me. Well, we'll see what will happen when we'll take the road again.

Aragorn then told us we would leave the morning after. I'm happy to go. Even if I love to be with my kin, even if this place is where Aragorn revealed his love, I don't feel being welcome anymore in Lórien.

We all returned to the tents together. Boromir was there, waiting for us.

Legolas remembered Imladris @ 10:40 p.m.
Thursday, March 6, 2003

The fellowship is leaving!! *cough*Boromir*cough* Nooo!! Well...I suppose they need to get back to their quest - but it's so sad! I would cry but it would, like, totally ruin my image!! ...the sooner the finish this quest the better it'll be for everyone.

My leg still *kind of* hurts. Of course it healed quickly because of the healers "magic". The little fat hobbit, wait two of them are kind of fat...the one that hangs around the hobbit with the EVIL...so anyways, that hobbit thinks that ALL elves have magic. Not all of us elves have magic to heal. Where the heck did that come from? *_* Anyways...

Lord Celeborn lied to me!! He just said he and Lady Galadriel would have a talk with me to freak me out! Well guess what?! It DID freak me out! Why would he lie to me? Why would he lie the *head* gaurdian? That just gets me thinking...AHHH!! Lady Galadriel - she's coming! ;_; I'm doomed...I'm going to loose my posistion as head gaurd and it will all be over I turned around and there she was. Hey -- wait a minute, she's smiling at me!

"Haldir..."" she started I bowed and started listening.

Haldir is talking to Lady Galadriel @ 08:19 p.m.
Wednesday, March 5, 2003

Oh ! It's ok, don't worry Master Elf ! I answered to Legolas. He smiled, a REAL smile, like he hadn't had since weeks. Aragorn saw that too and he suddenly looked less worried.

There was a single apple left in a plate and I ate it quickly. Boromir didn't look too happy about that. He stood up abruptly and left. I'm wondering what is wrong with him ? Oh well, these humans are so complicated !

It seems we will leave Lórien soon. Even if I like to be here, I can't wait to continue our journey. And see the end of it.

Sam took the last apple @ 12:46 a.m.
Thursday, March 6, 2003

I woke up very late and noticed that our camp was abandonned (again! Damn!). I dressed up quickly and rushed to the place where we used to have our meals (it took me some time to find it... T_T;)
My so-called friends sat around eating and talking and laughing and it seemed as if they hadn't even noticed that I was missing. Curse them!
I sat next to fat Sam and looked around for some food, but there was only one lousy apple left! And just at the very moment I wanted to grasp it, Sam's thick fingers closed around it and the apple disappeared in the Hobbit's mouth within a second! And he didn't even stop talking to Frodo!! 0_0
Damn! Damn! I HATE them! Stupid fellowship!

I stood up angrily and waited for anyone to notice my bad mood, but NO! The just went on laughing and eating and talking. So I rushed away and punched every tree I passed with wrath.

Back at the camp I sat on my blanket and bit my lips in anger. Why do we have to stay in this Elven-village for such a long time? Did they forget about the ring? I can't even remember the mad wizard complaining about anything lately! But - wait...where IS the wizard? He hasn't been around for some time...strange.

Well, as soon as they're back, I'll talk to them about our mission.

Boromir is angry @ 06:58 p.m.
Wednesday, March 5, 2003

Aragorn probably understood it really wasn't the moment for him to talk to me about his son.

Things were going too fast all of a sudden. I had his love, all what I had ever wished for, but this baby... It was too much for me.

Let's go back Aragorn said. We returned to the camp and separated before reaching our companions. Gimli smiled at me gently and I sat between Frodo and him. I could feel Aragorn's look on me. He must probably be hurt by my reaction.

I served myself some tea and bread with honey. Then I turned to the Hobbits :

I'm sorry about yesterday night. I was not angry or offended just... surprised. I regret my behaviour made you think otherwise and I ask you to forgive me... I told them.

Legolas ate breakfast @ 11:55 p.m.
Tuesday, March 4, 2003

I looked at Legolas. You really think he'd be happy with me ? Without his mother ? Wouldn't he be better off with her ? I asked.

He didn't really answer me, he just hugged me thighter. I think the subject of my son is not something he wants to discuss with me. So I dropped the subject.

We walked back to the tent area and we found the hobbits, Boromir, and Gimli waking up and having breakfast. I hate to tell them we have to leave, but I guess it's my job. I am to lead the Fellowship now that Gandalf is gone...

Aragorn understands @ 04:17 p.m.
Tuesday, March 4, 2003

I wake up slowly and pushed Merry off my hand. It felt numb now...blood circulation was cut off! Merry and his hugging while sleeping problems. Why can't I sleep with Frodo and Sam instead...nah! Cross that out...Frodo would be too much of a worrier and Sam is HEAVY. Grr...I'm hungry. I sit up and wake up Merry. "Let us find food!", I whispered. He yawned and went back to sleep. "Ahem! We will miss breakfast and second breakfast if you don't wake up!", I said a little louder. Merry sprung up! Works everytime! I drag Merry out of the tent and we go around to look for food! *stomach grumble* Then we meet up with Gimli! "Hi Master Dwarf!", Merry greeted him. "Hello Gimli! What's cooking?", I asked. *stomach grumble* "I think we will be leaving Lothlorien today or soon," Gimli sighed. WHAT!? Leave Lorien! NO! "Leave Lothlorien? TODAY!!! or soon?! NO! *drama*," I sreamed, "What's for breakfast!?" They both looked at me...*stomach grumble*

Pippin and Merry gets news @ 09:29 p.m.
Tuesday, March 4, 2003

Him ? So it is a boy. A new heir to the throne of Gondor... A future King.

That's good... And if your son has your love, he'll be happy. I know he'll be...

I suddenly felt a great emptiness fall over me. I was feeling numb, cold. And I knew nothing could change that... For the moment.

I hugged Aragorn tighter. I just wanted him. Nothing else. No one else... I thought about his son again and shivered.

Hum... We should go back to the camp, Aragorn. We must tell the others we will leave.

Legolas doesn't know what to think @ 11:47 p.m.
Monday, March 3, 2003

Time... Yes, that's only fair. I suppose that's the least I can do for him. If I were in his place, I don't know what I'd do, I really don't know... He just kissed me softly and I held him close. It felt wonderful... and so different from holding her...

Naa lle eina, Aragorn ? Ten' sina hin ? [Are you happy, Aragorn ? For this child ?] he asked. What could I say ? I can't truly say I'm not happy because of it. I've always wish to have a child.

Yes, I'd be lying if I said I didn't want this child... And I want him to be happy, Legolas... More than anything, but that seems pretty impossible now... I said.

Aragorn is happy for his child @ 04:12 p.m.
Monday, March 3, 2003

Forget ? No, Aragorn, I can't do that. I can try to not think about it but forget... No.

Aragorn looked sadly at me and sighed deeply. He turned and was about to leave when I grabbed his hand.

But, Aragorn... That doesn't mean I don't want to be with you...

I smiled and he touched my cheek softly. Just... Give me a little time to accept that. I only need time. And you.

I kissed him and he held me close against his chest. My fingers tangled in his. I can't explain how good I always feel in Aragorn's arms. When he touches me...

Naa lle eina, Aragorn ? Ten' sina hin ? [Are you happy, Aragorn ? For this child ?] I asked, so lowly that I first thought he hadn't heard as he didn't answer.

Legolas needs time @ 09:59 p.m.
Sunday, March 2, 2003

Saruman grew ill, he owed the Ents something..... sorry its short, but i'm tired.

saruman leaves his precious Orthnac... @ 09:12 p.m.
Saturday, March 1, 2003

Arwen extended her hand towards me, and I understood the unspoken question. I reached into my tunic and pulled out the Evenstar, the token of love she'd given to me in Imladris. I handed it back to her without any words. I had no words that she'd believe...

She immediately took it from me and said she'd never love anyone again. That is a long time, as she's an Elf and she's immortal... I truly hope she'll find someone who will love her.

Then I left her, by her grandmother's side. I wonder what she thinks of Legolas now, after all, she said something to him about following his heart or something... Had she forseen all this ?

I was looking for Legolas and I found him in the woods with Gimli. It's odd to watch an Elf and Dwarf being friendly but I said nothing except, Legolas... Can I talk to you ?. He nodded and Gimli left us alone.

Legolas... I'm sorry, I never imagined this would happen. I'm sorry if I hurt you... I'm sorry if now you don't want to be with me anymore, but couldn't we, for the sake of the quest, forget about this for a while ? I asked.

Aragorn wants to talk @ 04:25 p.m.
Saturday, March 1, 2003

I smiled at Mr. Frodo. He was probably right. Aragorn and Legolas have been acted funny since we arrived in Lórien. I wish that Gandalf was still with us. I'm sure his wisdom would be very useful to us.

Maybe we could have some breakfast then ? I proposed.

Mr. Frodo smiled gently and we both get ready to leave the tent.

Sam wants breakfast @ 11:25 p.m.
Saturday, March 1, 2003

I calmed down slowly and washed my face with fresh water. It soothed me a little but my mind was still in pain.

I then heard leaves cracking and heavy footsteps around the tent. I took my bow, prepared an arrow and quickly opened the door flaps. It was Gimli. He looked kinda scared at first but sighed in relief when I put down my weapons. Then he looked more closely at me and frowned.

What happened ? You look like you've been crying he said. I just looked away. Wanna walk around Lórien with me, Gimli ? I need to walk... around right now... I just answered.

Gimli stopped his eternal mumbling and nodded with a smile. We started to walk away from the camp. I probably wasn't of the best company but the fresh hair and being in the forest made me feel a little better. Gimli was telling me how much he liked to be there but I knew he wanted more action.

Don't worry, Gimli, we will leave soon I told him. Probably tomorrow morning, when everybody'll be ready. Gimli grinned happily and rubbed his hands. Ahah !! Finally !! This is a GREAT new !!

I looked at him and couldn't help but smiled softly. My Father has such a wrong opinion about the Dwarves ! They are nice people.

We continued to walk for a while, in silence. I suddenly felt a warm and well known presence and I bumped into Aragorn. He looked very shocked. He didn't wear the Evenstar anymore. I bent my head again. I even couldn't look at him.

Legolas... Can I talk to you ? he asked. I just nodded.

Hum... I will let the bosses talk !! Gimli said. I'm gonna get my things ready for the departure and have some breakfast !

He left and I turned back to Aragorn.

Legolas walked with Gimli @ 10:15 p.m.
Saturday, March 1, 2003

I woke up to the pleasantness of Lothlorien. It is a beautiful place and it is starting to feel like home...not that I'm gonna tell that to the elves after Arwen's rude runaway...I was TRYING to be NICE to her! Kings forbid to be nice to dwarfs...Children of Sauron. BUT, I'm not going to let an elf make my last days in a place like this miserable like Boromir. Wait. Boromir seems happy here and doing alot of bonding with Haldir. That is...nice. You know, Boromir + friendly = smile, not usual Boromir + rant = frown. I get out of my comfy bed and take a big breath! AHHH! I woken up very very early today! I smile...grin widely...chuckle wickedly. I must use this power! Some harmless snooping won't hurt the world. I walk over to the tent beside me and slowly open Merry/Pippin's tent. I see an funny sight as Pippin is sleeping with his head tilted incredible high and his mouth open and Merry hugging Pippins arm as if it were a pillow. Hobbits sleep funny I thought. I chuckled...I'm so wicked, but this isn't the end of it..muahaha! I go to and sneak over to Boromir's tent. I open it slowly and see a most disturbing sight. He was sleeping with straight as he hugged a very small human-crafted doll...what a she-human, but it disturbed me that he wasn't exactly wearing what he was supposed to. Yes. Disturbing? Very! I lifted my closed lips in a disgusted look and thought, I will stop now. Ew! Then was walking to sit on a tree trunk, and take a little rest. Hey! Snooping is very tiring! I start to chuckle as I think of Merry and Pippin. Then I had a thought, What's happening in Legolas and Aragorn's tent? Maybe I'll see Arwen in there and Legolas sleeping with blindfolds on his eyes. Muahahaha! I krept, well, stomped to the tent...what?! Can I help it that the leaves on the floor of Lorien is very noisy and crunchy? I walk over to Legolas's tent and I was about to open the tent flaps slowly to do some snooping, but it open too quickly for my "lightning" reflexes to see and came face to face with Legolas AND his bow and arrow. Whoa, don't go all Gondor on me!, I muttered. He relaxed his face and put down his weapon when he saw me. What are you doing, Gimli?, he demanded. He didn't sound so angry tho. He sounded...a little like Arwen. Sad and some inner pleading (flash back = not good for me. Lay off.). I'm cursed..."I was just - just gonna check on you...guys. In case orcs - cause it is very dangerous - What happened? You look like you've been crying?" He looked away...elves and their pride...Wanna walk around Lorien with me, Gimli? I need to walk...around right now", he sighed. Elves and th - what?

Gimli the little snoop @ 04:18 p.m.
Saturday, March 1, 2003

Yeah, that big annoying administrator rant has been removed. ^^;; Thanks to all of you for reading it, things are really going better now. XD

What else ? Rules have been editing a bit. Eheh... That's all for the moment.

Eärwen @ 04:10 p.m.
Saturday, March 1, 2003

Her grandmother's presence there gives a tiny glint of strength, but Arwen's eyes still fill with tears as she holds her hand out to Aragon to take back the token of her love for him. She clenches her teeth, the anger and resentment piling on as each tear falls.

I will never love another... I will never love again.

Arwen says goodbye in her own way @ 05:33 p.m.
Friday, February 28, 2003

Arwen's words were like poisoned arrows shot in my heart and soul. I was so surprised, and hurt, that I couldn't say a thing. And Aragorn's silence didn't really arrange the things.

Then Lady Galadriel appeared and asked us when we would leave. Aragorn said he wanted to go as soon as possible. I just nodded, not daring to look up at her. I didn't understand anymore why Lady Galadriel had told me such things when she certainly knew about the... the child.

I could feel their looks upon me. My head was hurting, my sight was blurred.

E-excuse me... I-I must finish to pack... I said. I bowed and left to go back to the tent. I sat on my bed and clenched my hand over my heart. Unwanting tears were already rolling down my cheeks.

Legolas is distressed @ 12:41 a.m.
Saturday, March 1, 2003

I looked at Sam, and shook my head. I wish I could tell him what I saw, but I can't talk about it now... And besides, I know Sam would feel distressed if I told him... He loves the Shire and I couldn't shatter his hopes like that, not even if it's only a possible future...

I'll tell you some other time, my fellow Sam... If we live to complete this adventure...

Sam said something and pointed to the outside of the tent, and I turned in that direction and shook my head again. I don't we should ask them now Sam... I think they have a problem, I can feel it... I said.

Frodo thinks there's a problem @ 04:58 p.m.
Friday, February 28, 2003

I never thought I'd hear Arwen speaking that kind of words to another Elf. I thought she would never even have that kind of thoughts, much less say them.

I looked at Legolas' distressed face and was about to reply something to defend him, when Lady Galadriel appeared and stood behind Arwen. She asked when we would leave.

I think we should leave as soon as possible, My Lady... There's great evil at the edge of this forest... And more than half of our quest still lies before us... I answered, and then I bowed.

Aragorn wants to leave @ 04:51 p.m.
Friday, February 28, 2003

Oh I see...What kind of things did the Lady show you, if I may ask ?

Mr. Frodo looked sad and very worried. What he had seen was certainly very disturbing for him. And he keeps fingering the Ring a lot lately. He remained silent and I didn't insist. I knew he would talk when he would need to.

We then heard voices outside. I recognized Legolas' then Lady Galadriel's. I peeked out of the tent.

Look, Mr. Frodo ! Strider is there ! Maybe we could go and ask him if we'll leave soon ?!

Sam wants to leave @ 10:42 p.m.
Friday, February 28, 2003

Arwen’s face becomes stoic as she looks at Legolas.

Utinu en lokirim… Amin delotha lle. [She calls him a name which means something like dishonest person… I hate you]

She covers her face in shame at having uttered those words not knowing that she could feel this cold feeling inside her heart. She almost goes to Aragorn for comfort, but the flinches away from him, stepping backwards. Cool arms rest on her shoulders and she looks behind her to see her grandmother there.

Iire lle auta, Aragorn, Legolas? [When will you leave Aragorn, Legolas?]

Arwen rejects the apology @ 07:59 p.m.
Thursday, February 27, 2003

The evil, tricksy Elfses !!!! We is afraid of them !!!!! They is doing something to us, precious, they want the Precious for themselves !!!! They can't have the Precious, It is ours !!! But we can't get it, they will kills us... *Hissssssssssssssss*

Gollum is afraid @ 04:43 p.m.
Thursday, February 27, 2003

Sam asked me this morning if I had slept last night. I wanted to say that I had, but Sam knows me too well and would know I was lying.

I tried to, but I woke up after a while and then went to take a walk. I saw Lady Arwen, and then Lady Galadriel. She showed me some things in her mirror and I couldn't sleep after that... I said truthfully.

I can tell he worries about me, and that he just wants this to be over so we can go back to the Shire. My poor Sam, if it only was so easy and destroying the Ring and going back... I don't think I'll even be able to see the Shire again...

Frodo thinks he'll never see the Shire again @ 04:36 p.m.
Thursday, February 27, 2003

I worry for Mr. Frodo. He had barely slept and ate since we're in Lórien. And he didn't spend last night in his bed. I'm wondering where he was.

We're here since one month now. Strider doesn't seem to want to leave. Especially since Lady Arwen arrived. Mm... And Legolas is always looking sad. After all what Mr. Bilbo told us about them, I never thought an Elf could look THAT sad ! Oh well... Boromir talks a lot with Haldir lately and Gimli is looking around, probably trying to see Lady Galadriel again. Merry and Pippin, them, spend their time stealing food to the Elves and playing. Our task seem to be forgotten by everybody.

I wish we leave soon. So we can go to Mordor, destruct the Ring and go back to the Shire. I miss the Shire.

Sam wonders @ 10:20 p.m.
Thursday, February 27, 2003

I didn't know what to say to Legolas right then... I wanted to say that he didn't need to be sorry, that it was not his fault I fell in love with him, or that Arwen was expecting my child now, or something that would soothe his pain.

But I just couldn't do that in the moment. Not in front of Arwen, she already hates him enough, I can see it in her eyes.

Aragorn doesn't want Legolas to be sorry @ 04:54 p.m.
Wednesday, February 26, 2003

My Uncle didn't recognize me this morning as I went to see him. Grima is endlessly talking to him and I even hear whispers about my brother amongst the guards.

Éomer told me he will soon leave with his Riders. Théodred, my young and fair cousin, asked to go with them.

Please, gods, keep them safe. Keep them safe...

Éowyn doesn't want her brother to go @ 11:23 p.m.
Wednesday, February 26, 2003

I walked over to Aragorn and Arwen. I had the feeling everything was going slower, all was blurry around me. My body was trembling as I felt the hate coming from Arwen falling upon me.

Arwen... Amin hiraetha... [Arwen... I'm sorry...]

It was such an idiot thing to say. Because nothing could express what I was feeling at that moment. Sadness... And an immeasurable pain.

If I had realized before that you... I would have kept my heart closed... Forgive me.

I bent my head, not able to look at her, neither at Aragorn.

Legolas asked for forgiveness @ 10:47 p.m.
Wednesday, February 26, 2003

After the incident with the ring Galadriel feels the sadness deep inside her grow. She had passed the test and will return with her people, but leave the land where she had lived for so long behind, into the hands of man. She hopes that she is not making a mistake by trusting them… Galadriel stands before a stone table, an alter of sorts, and looks down at the things that are laid out there: a bow and quiver with the arrows of the Galadhrim, two elvish daggers, and elvish rope, a small box with a G ornately carved into it, the phial with the light of Earendil, a belt of gold, and the Elfstone of the House of Elendil. Her eyes pass over each of the items and she looks up feeling some darkness at the edge of her forest. Gollum… This does not pose much of a threat, but quite a nuisance. But even worse than the darkness of Gollum’s mind there seems to be something, something that is festering in hatred that makes Galadriel worry.

Putting aside her worry she focuses to the task at hand. She closes her eyes clearing her mind, searching through the forest to find the small creature that causes troubles in it. She finds him and takes a deep steadying breath, readying to cast the spell. She raises both her hands up to chest level and softly utters one single word of power. She uses an old, old spell only know by a few beings on Middle-earth.

Gorgamin... [fear]

She sends out the sensation of fear to Gollum; not fear of her or her people, but fear that the ring has left this place and that Gollum is trying to get to the elves for no reason. She smiles softly feeling a little blossom of anger coming from her guardian, Haldir. She begins to make her way down to see how he fairs when she feels that festering hatred in full force that causes her to stumble. Not for a long time has she felt an emotion such as this. She turns to see the source of it and finds that it is radiating from Arwen.

Galadriel gathers all her little goodies @ 03:23 a.m.
Wednesday, February 26, 2003

I got back to Lord Celeborn who was waiting in the same spot he was when he ordered me to chase after the creature. I hate that creature! If I ever get my hands on it again I will kill it!! I told him that it got away. Celeborn was very upset with me. Just as I predicted. He put me down very much. He said that Lady Galadriel will speak to me later today. He also said the Fellowship was leaving today! Noooo! I want to go with them! I know I can't though. =( I will be sure to say good-bye to Boromir and the rest of the Fellowship. Even if Celeborn or anyone for that matter says no. Boromir become a very good friend of mine. I hope to see him again after he completes the quest he was appointed to.

Celeborn was kind of nice though (it didn't last though)...he helped me walk back to my camp and called for a elf to heal my wounds. His last words made me feel very upset and sad, he told me, "Dolle naa lost, Haldir!" [your head is empty]. How could he say that? Then he told me in a commanding voice: "I will see you in a few hours...with Galadriel.". I nodded and lay down and looked at my leg. The bleeding hadn't stopped. I saw an Elf come over and look at my leg. I opened my mouth to say something but pain over took me and I slowly feel asleep.

Haldir falls asleep @ 06:00 p.m.
Tuesday, February 25, 2003

Tricksy Elfses, they're hiding my Precious, they wants it, but they won't have it. One of them is following us, we must kills it, precious. We jumps it and strangles it. But it is strong... It fights us... We steals one of it's arrows and stabs it with it. Then we runs away, to keep looking for the Precious. We hates Elfses !!!

Gollum hates Elfses @ 04:36 p.m.
Tuesday, February 25, 2003

Last night, after Arwen let me know without words she didn't want or need the pity of a Hobbit, I ended up wandering through the woods, where I found the Lady. She took me to a hidden place.

I followed her down a set of stairs and we stopped at a small fountain. She poured some water into it and told me to look into it, as it could show me something important.

As I looked into it, I saw brief glimpses of a possible future, if I fail. Then I offered the Ring to her, but even though she was tempted, she couldn't take it. How can an Elf as powerful as her be so afraid of It ?

Now, more than ever, I'm convinced that I must go into Mordor and get rid of It at once. Maybe I should continue alone, I don't want any of my friends to risk their lives in that evil land...

Frodo looked into the Mirror @ 04:26 p.m.
Tuesday, February 25, 2003

Arwen. Expecting. My, no, our child... I, no, no, now more deeply I regret leaving her. But still, would it be good for the baby to live with parents when one of them is in love with someone else ?

Arwen... I'm sorry... If I had known the truth about my heart then... I wouldn't have... I'm sorry, I'll help you in any way I can, but I can't promise to give my heart to you when it belongs to someone else... I said.

I saw Arwen was listening to me, but then she suddenly turned her head around, and I saw she was looking at Legolas. And what I saw in her eyes was not something I'd even though I'd see: hatred.

Aragorn is in shock @ 04:18 p.m.
Tuesday, February 25, 2003

I started to collect my belongings and packed them. It was our last day in Lórien. The wounds of our bodies were healed, our hearts more at peace. Or so I thought.

The sky was now clear. It was time to wake up the others to announce them our departure. Besides, I still wanted to apologize to the Hobbits.

I left the tent and saw them, standing not too far from the fountain around which they were playing last night. I couldn't see Aragorn's face but I saw the tears on Arwen's cheeks. I saw her hands holding Aragorn's before resting it on her stomach. How come I didn't feel it when she arrived here, even when we were still at Imladris ? I probably was too much focused onto my own emotions and pain to discover it.

She will offer him something he had always dreamt of. Something I would never be able to give him.

She is pregnant. She is expecting Aragorn's child.

My hand gripped the fabric of the tent's door. I have ruined Arwen's life. I have ruined Aragorn's life. Why did I talk ? My eyes started to sting and it took me all my will for not crying. I am so stupid ! I knew they were lovers. Why did I always think something like that would never happen ?

Because I am so in love with Aragorn.

I had a muffled sob and Arwen opened her eyes. She looked at me and I felt my blood freeze in my veins. So much regrets, so much hate in her dark iris.

I have never wished to harm anybody. But my only presence has brought so much pain...

Legolas discovered Arwen's secret @ 10:21 p.m.
Tuesday, February 25, 2003

Arwen turns and looks at him with eyes full of betrayal. What more does he have to say? He has already hurt her enough?! But no, here he is always looking the part of the hero. She smiles at him and holds her bloody hands out to him caressing his cheek.

Aragorn… We may talk now, but I will never understand. I will never understand why you did this to me… To us.

She takes her hand away from him looking at the blood on his cheek wishing it were not there. She closes her eyes and sighs.

The reason I came here… was to tell you that… that we simply missed you and wanted to see you again. I thought it best that he heard your voice before he is born.

She takes his hand and rests it on her stomach, tears welling in her eyes again.

This is another burden which I must bear alone… isn’t it Aragorn?

Arwen tells her secret @ 11:45 p.m.
Monday, February 24, 2003

We approched near the small figure, I the front leading Lord Celeborn. We walked quietly, and heard the creature breathing...almost there...I quietly got my bow out and bent it with an arrow, ready to shoot. I took once step closer and I accidently stepped on a twig! The creature heard me and got away. Celeborn shouted at me telling me to go after it, I did as he said. I looked over my shoulder and saw Celeborn not moving. He just kept shouting in the language of Elves to catch whatever had come into the lands.

Slowly his voice faded and I kept running. This creature is fast, I thought to myself. What can't I catch it? I ran and ran, my hand still clutched in my hand. I came to a clearing in the forest and stopped. I heard nothing, and saw the creature no more. I narrowed my eyes and looked through the trees once more. It had gotten away. Whatever the creature was, it had gotten away.

I felt my heart sink. Lord Celeborn would not be happy with the result. I turned around and started walking. Then something jumped on my back! I felt my quiver of arrows be torn off me and I dropped my bow and fell to the ground. What was happening? I heard something hissing angirly. I shouted for help, and tried to reach for my bow. I realized it was the creature I had been following! It attacked me...how come I couldn't hear it coming? What's wrong with me?? GRR! This thing puts up a good fight! I gritted my teeth and rolled onto my back and came face to face with it. It was hideous! Bleh...anyways I got one of my hands loose from its grip (pretty good grip too) and tried to grab a arrow from my quiver (hehe...maybe I could stab it! Muahahaha!). But that stupid creature got the arrow I had ready with my bow earlier and stabbed my leg. Pain rushed through me and the creature glared at me and left. I lay there, wondering why I could not defeat it. The same question popped in my head, Why couldn't I hear it? This doesn't make sense! I obviously have been away from my duty as gaurdian too long...

I got up clutching my leg and made my way back to Lord Celeborn. This is going to be very embarrassing...I think. What is he going to say to me? What will the others (Boromir!) think of me? What will the Lady do? I hope she will keep letting me be the *leader* of gaudians!

Haldir is wondering @ 07:30 p.m.
Monday, February 24, 2003

No !!! The evil Elfses have founds us, precious !!!!! We can smell them getting closer, don't we, precious ? We must run, before the kills us... The Precious will have to wait...

Gollum escaped @ 05:05 p.m.
Monday, February 24, 2003

I left Legolas for a while, as I had to find Arwen and talk to her. I didn't know where she was, so I decided to go back to the camp, to ask the other if they'd seen her. I met Gimli on the way. He seemed angry at me, maybe he already knows about Arwen and me, and he showed me the way she had gone.

I found her walking in the direction to the tent I share with Legolas, maybe she wants to talk now. I ran to her and intercepted her.

Arwen !!! Can we talk now ? I need you to understand... I said, and stopped for a moment to see if she had anything to say to me too.

Aragorn found Arwen @ 04:54 p.m.
Monday, February 24, 2003

Arwen looks up at Gimli with hurt and anger in her eyes, she almost feels as if he’s mocking her, as if the whole forest is mocking her. She stands and turns away from Gimli. What would a simple dwarf know of elvish feelings anyhow? She turns her face away from him and decides to look for Aragon… To tell him what she had come to tell him, not sure if he is worthy to hear the news after all. She shakes her head and covers her mouth to keep a sob inside. NO! She must be strong! She takes a few deep breaths and goes to meet Aragon, looking rather wild with the leaves in her hair and blood running down her fingers. Dark thoughts that would have once been uncomfortable to her come to her mind as a black cloud, Legolas’s face in the middle of it all.

Arwen is out for blood @ 02:28 p.m.
Monday, February 24, 2003

I winced a little at the name of Arwen but I understood that Aragorn has to talk to her. It's only fair. Still, I'm wondering how long her presence will be an obstacle between us...

I rose my hand and touched the Evenstar around Aragorn's neck softly. It was not as shiny as before.

It took time for an Elf to become truly mortal... I said. It's not too late for her. Maybe she still can go to Valinor, as I know you wished.

Aragorn sighed and looked at me sadly. I saw in his eyes that it also was what he wanted for me.

No, Aragorn. I won't go to the Eternal Land, my place is here. With you, with the Fellowship.

He still said nothing. Maybe he didn't really want to see me leave. I kissed his cheek and pushed him.

Goo see her now. I walked a little away and looked at him again. Tenna' telwan san'[until later then] I added before returning to the camp. I still had the time to rest before breakfast.

Hey ! Wait a minute... Did Aragorn REALLY call me love ??

Legolas goes *.* @ 10:42 p.m.
Monday, February 24, 2003

New archive is here.

We lost our Samwise Gamgee. ;__; If anyone wants the role, it is free...

Eärwen @ 10:39 p.m.
Monday, February 24, 2003