HOBBITS > There And Back Again #6

Today was our last day in Lorien. I'm glad to leave, but somehow I don't wish to leave Haldir. Of course he said I could drop by in Lorien whenever I wish, but...I have this kind of bad feeling. As if I'd never return to this place...
Feh, stupid thoughts. Of course we'll meet again one day!
I sat around near the others while we were waiting for Lady Galadriel. I hope I won't have to share my boat with the dwarf! I'm sure we'll flip over as soon as he starts breathing...T_T;
Maybe someone who's a bit lighter should share a boat with him...

I got up and went to Legolas and Aragorn who packed our boats.
'Legolas, mind if you share the boat with Gimli?' He looked at me with surprise. 'I mean, I'm a bit heavy with all my weapons and stuff. And he is definitely VERY heavy. But you, you are an Elf, know what I mean?' I asked him and he smiled at me. 'Alright, no problem, Boromir.'

Then finally an Elven maiden came by and called for us, so I got up and followed the others. Haldir was leaning on a tree, he told me he'd talk to me later. Well, at least one thing to look forward to *cough* I wonder what Galadriel wants to tell us.

Boromir and his boat problem @ 02:20 p.m.
Thursday, March 27, 2003

I laughed and the sound surprised me a little. I hadn't laughed this way since a long time...

We can do that ! And don't worry, I'll help him to go back in the boat... Maybe... I answered with a wink. Aragorn just looked at me with a smile.

We finally reached our companions and Aragorn squeezed my hand gently as Galadriel joined us. We all bowed before her.

Legolas laughed @ 02:07 a.m.
Wednesday, March 26, 2003

Push him off the boat ? Sounds like a good idea, though we'll have to rescue him before he sinks with that heavy mail of his. We can push him in the shallow part of the river. I said. And after Lady Galadriel lets us go. It won't do for him to show up all wet before her !!!

Aragorn thinks it's a good idea. @ 06:48 p.m.
Tuesday, March 25, 2003

I left Galadriel, since Lord Celeborn wanted to talk with her. Guess what? I get to keep my job as head gaurdian! *dances* She wasn't even mad at me! What a great job I will do when I return back to my job. That last thing I said to the Lady was something like "Thank you, my lady - I will no further disappoint you!" Then I bowed and left to go to sleep.

I just woke up - I must have been asleep for a long time, because I heard my brothers talking about the Fellowship leaving very soon - the very soon was today! I started to panic and looked for my belt, boots, and ...you get it. So, once I got dressed I ran out of the camp and hoped that I didn't miss them. If I did...I'd be sad.

Once I got there I saw Aragorn and Legolas packing something in the boats. Two of the hobbits were eating, Frodo and the fat hobbit were talking to each other, and Boromir was sitting alone. He looked kind of disturbed. Wonder why. :/ I started to walk towards him and then an Elven maiden called for the Fellowship to see the Lady. They all got up. That Dwarf is so rude...

I leaned on a tree and watched them walk by. When Boromir walked by I greeted him and told him I'd talk to him later. He nodded and kept walking. I sat down on the grass and sighed.

Haldir sits @ 06:04 p.m.
Monday, March 24, 2003

I almost fell when Gimli pushed Aragorn and I to be the first to reach Lady Galadriel. Frodo and Sam were laughing behind us.

Legolas ? Want to show that Dwarf a "lesson" ? Aragorn asked me.

That was tempting, I admit it ! I smiled and looked at the boats the Elves were loading with food and others useful things for us. I caught a glimpse of leaves wrapped lembas and arrows decorated with yellow feathers. I looked back at Aragorn.

Mm... Maybe I can try to push him off the boat ?

Legolas, lembas and arrows @ 12:34 a.m.
Monday, March 24, 2003

The Lady called us all to her again. This time all of the Fellowship, I guess she wants to bid us farewell. I'm so grateful for all she has done, especially for Legolas and me. Even if she is Arwen's grandmother.

Legolas and I were walking over to where she waited for us, when we saw Merry and Pippin running by. Then I felt backside hitting ground and looked around to see what had happened. It was Gimli who had pushed Legolas and me aside in a hurry to beat the Hobbits.

Legolas ? Want to show that dwarf a "lesson" ? I asked him.

Aragorn was pushed @ 05:04 p.m.
Sunday, March 23, 2003

We were leaving Lorien. I can promise you tears were falling from my eyes. We were going to leave with elven boats that don't sink. They are really lean and mean and all, but dwarf boats are better. They are bigger... cooler... browner... and trendier, I think. and they sink... um ye. But they are better... in a way that is... that dwarfs made 'em! I looked around and saw Aragorn and Legolas hugging. I guess now that it is live and broad in the fellowship that the whole world should be in tune eh? Ye go dance and show the black riders and Sharuman if they don't know already!!! I don't know why I'm such in a bad mood. Ah! I don't want to leave Lorien. I looked around and see the Lady Galadriel waving at us from the rock. She was talking with her elven maids. Then I saw them approach us.
The Lady calls you... Please come with us, they bow and lead the way as the fellowship follow them. Pippin was running to the front, followed by Merry. Race I guess. Greedy hobbits. They want to bow before the Lady first... Hey wait! I want to to be in front! I run and push Aragorn and Legolas aside...

Gimli + Fellowship is called by the Lady @ 10:19 p.m.
Sunday, March 23, 2003

treebeard laughed out loud, it was a booming laugh that saruman hadn't heard since he was a little boy. saruman put his pipe down, he looked up at his long lost friend. "where have you been?" asked saruman, and just for that split second saruman looked innocent of his crimes. treebeard stood up and lifted his small friend. "times have been harsh upon us. i prefer to take a walk"

ents and saruman @ 08:37 a.m.
Sunday, March 23, 2003

I silently sighed in relief. He was worried, just worried. He probably thought that showing love wouldn't make a good leader of him. He was so wrong ! Feelings can be a strenght too...

Thank you, Aragorn... I whispered to him and he hugged me tighter. Nobody... Nobody asks you to be like Mithrandir. You are not him. But I know... I know you'll guide us through darkness.

I smiled softly at him and kissed him quickly. I didn't want to leave his arms. Because I didn't know when would be the next time he would hold me like that again...

Legolas wants to be hugged @ 12:23 a.m.
Friday, March 21, 2003

I don't want Legolas to be angry at me, but I guess I deserve it. We stayed silent for a while, but a couple of minutes later he slid into my arms and whispered he was sorry.

You have nothing to be sorry about, dear... I'm the one who is sorry. I made you believe I didn't care about you... I just don't know how to be a good leader for the Fellowship... I-I can never be like Gandalf... I answered, and held him close to me.

Aragorn is sorry too @ 04:51 p.m.
Thursday, March 20, 2003

Aragorn's words hurt me more than I thought it would do. He tried to hold my hand as Lady Galadriel and Lord Celeborn went away to the others but the harm was already done. I turned away from him, saying I wished he didn't talk to me unless it concerned the mission.

Oh, I see... I heard him say. What did he think ? He can't reject me like that then do like if everything was alright ! That would be too easy.

But still... I looked at Aragorn. He really looked like regretting what he had told me. And I realized that I wasn't as strong as I thought I was. I didn't want to be angry with him, I didn't want to let everything stand between us. I just couldn't bear that more than I had already had during the last months. And if he didn't accept me like that, it was his choice.

I whispered his name and he lifted his head to look at me. I slid into Aragorn's arms, not minding our Companions and the others Elves seeing us, not minding what they could think of us.

I'm sorry... I said softly in his ear. And I waited. I waited for his reaction...

Legolas is sorry @ 01:02 a.m.
Thursday, March 20, 2003

Mr. Frodo asked Merry, Pippin and I to return to the Shire instead or going with him. Yeah. Exactly. Like we are going to do that ! I made a promise to Gandalf and I will keep it, even if I must die because of it !

Lord Celeborn and Lady Galadriel talked with Strider and Legolas. Then she walked over to us, smiling softly at our Company.

Sam will keep is promise @ 12:43 a.m.
Thursday, March 20, 2003

Legolas was more hurt by my words than I thought. We didn't talk from the moment I said the mission was more important. And he has the right to be angry, but I really mustn't let my feelings get in the way... Maybe the Fellowship will survive without Gandalf, but the chances of success are much lower than ever...

We went to get the Hobbits and then the Lord and Lady came to say their farewell to us. Lord Celeborn gave us counsel and advice about the perils ahead. Orcs worry me... I don't think Hobbits are ready to fight them, and we're only four others.

I looked at Legolas and tried to hold his hand, but he pulled his hand away from mine and turned away. You said the mission is first, so don't talk to me unless it's something about it. he said to me in Elvish. I looked down. Oh, I see... I said.

Aragorn bowed before the Lord and Lady @ 05:27 p.m.
Wednesday, March 19, 2003

Aragorn and Legolas came to get us when noon finally came. I had dozed off lightly, but Sam woke me up when Aragorn asked if we were ready yet. Sam said we were, that he'd just call me and we'd be ready to go.

The Elves were so nice, they even gave us magical boats. And then, the Lord and Lady of Lórien came to us to say good-bye. Well, more to Aragorn and Legolas, as they talked in Elvish, but I can understand a bit of it. The Lady is so nice and gentle... I'm glad she let me stay at her forest.

Frodo looked at the Lady @ 05:18 p.m.
Wednesday, March 19, 2003

Due to some pictures host problems, all the images had to find a new home. They are now nicely hosted by Kaoru at her domain. A HUGE THANK YOU to her !!

Eheh... Yeah, the dialogue sounded very familiar to me, Sarah. ^__^ These deleted Lórien scenes are so cool !

Eärwen @ 10:00 p.m.
Tuesday, March 18, 2003

I walked over to Aragorn and Legolas with Galadriel.

Mordor Orcs now hold the eastern shore of the Anduin,nor will you find saftey on the western banks.Strange creatures bearing the white hand have been seen on our borders.Traveling by river you have the best chance of out running the enemy. You must be cautious and careful for you are being tracked.

Celeborn holds his hands out to Aragorn and upon them lies an elvish dagger. Sana Sina (take this)

The faiths of us all rest in the fellowship's hands, it is a large and dangerous task you must complete but I have every faith in you and I know you will succeed.I also know much has happened while your stay here, it is a shame some things turned out the way they did but I'm sure in the end it will all work itself out.You both still have my respect and friendship that will never change. Namaarie tenna' ento lye omenta amin mellon eamin (Farewell until we next meet my friends)

[o.o.c. hehe..used a little dialoge from the deleted scene ;) ]

Celeborn bids Aragorn and Legolas farewell @ 12:23 a.m.
Tuesday, March 18, 2003

I took my pack and my weapons when Aragorn told me it was time. He kissed me softly before going out but I almost didn't answer to him. The mission comes first, doesn't it ?

Aragorn went to inform our companions and a She-Elf leaded us to the river. Using boats was, indeed, the best way for us to leave Lórien.

Lady Galadriel arrived a few moment after us. She joined Lord Celeborn who was waiting for her and they both walked over to us.

Legolas took his things @ 01:03 a.m.
Tuesday, March 18, 2003

Legolas is disappointed at me. Because I put the mission in front of him. I know it's not a nice thing to do, but now that Gandalf is gone the responsability has fallen onto me.

He lied down until midday came. He didn't say anything during all that while. And when noon finally came, I just said to him. It's time, Legolas... We must leave now...

Aragorn thinks it's time to leave @ 05:44 p.m.
Monday, March 17, 2003

I think Aragorn is wiser than me. I so wish our love to be true that I want to spend any single minute of my life with him. But it probaly wouldn't be a good thing for the Fellowship.

You are right. I'm sorry for being so selfish. I said. The mission first... It was always like that anyway.

I lay down on my bed and decided to wait quietly until noon. I didn't see anything else to do.

Legolas waits @ 11:15 p.m.
Sunday, March 16, 2003

I looked at Legolas and asked him what bothered him. He said many things did, but before I could answer, he asked if we would have time for us during our journey.

I don't know, Legolas... We don't know what kind of dangers await for us on the way to Mordor... And I don't mean only external danger, but even between the members of our own Fellowship... I love you, but you must understand that I have to protect Frodo, because on him rests the fate of Middle-Earth. And if he fails, then there'll be no future either for us, or anyone else... I answered. I hope I didn't offend him or make him angry.

He was silent for a moment, thinking about what I'd just said to him.

Aragorn doesn't know @ 03:26 p.m.
Sunday, March 16, 2003

I just nodded in answer to Aragorn's question and we went to our tent. Our packs were ready so we just sat together and Aragorn gave me the food he had saved for me. That was very nice of him.

So I ate a little piece of bread and put the rest aside for later. I wasn't that hungry. I was feeling nervous.

What does bother you, Legolas ? Aragorn asked me gently.

Too much things... I answered. I looked at him and before he could say something, I talked once more. When we'll take the road again, will we still have time for us, Aragorn ?

Legolas had some bread @ 12:30 a.m.
Sunday, March 16, 2003

*Sighs* I went back to the tents with Sam, Merry, and Pippin. Do they really realize what they'll get themselves into if they follow me to Mordor ? Do they even imagine that they'll probably never return to the Shire ? I have to talk to them, before it's too late.

They made me rest while they packed their and my things. I sat on the bed and looked at them. Sam, Merry, Pippin... I want you to go back home... I don't want you to follow me into Mordor... I don't want you to risk your lives for me... I said.

I might have as well told them the opposite, because they stubbornly said they'd go with me, no matter what. Why do us Hobbits have to be so naive, so stupid ? Why didn't I just keep my mouth shut that day in Rivendell ?

Frodo wants his friends to go home @ 05:15 p.m.
Saturday, March 15, 2003

Poor Legolas, I think the fact that Boromir disapproves of our relationship bothered him greatly. I wish men in Minas Tirith weren't educated to be so er... traditional. They lack tolerance, maybe that's why the Elves-Men Alliance has not be renewed over the years.

Anyway, I noticed Legolas pushed his food aside, so I saved a bit of food for him. Maybe he'll eat it when we return to the tent. Everyone left to their tents to finsih preparing their things.

Legolas, why don't we go back to our tent ? I asked, and stood up from the table.

Aragorn patted Legolas @ 05:04 p.m.
Saturday, March 15, 2003

We finished our breakfast and went back to the tents to check everything was ready. Legolas didn't eat and I think I saw Aragorn saving something for him but I am not too sure. Pippin was very happy, he should stop to eat too much sugary food !

Mr. Frodo rested a little and, at noon, Aragorn came to tell us it was time to go. One of Lady Galadriel's maids was there to lead us to a river where three Elfish boats were waiting for us. Legolas told us they were magical and wouldn't sink, even if you put very heavy things in them. Very good ! I'm reassured, I don't like boats...

Lord Celeborn was already there with Haldir. Then Lady Galadriel arrived, in a beautiful boat of the shape of a swan.

Sam and boats @ 11:37 p.m.
Saturday, March 15, 2003

I should try to stop reacting so abruptly about everything. But I also would like that everything goes well within the Fellowship. I don't know... I've got the feeling that staying more longer in Lórien wouldn't be a good idea. We all need to think to something else. We all need more action.

Aragorn was right. So I sat back with them and started poking my food. I finally gave it to Pippin who seemed to be starving and began counting the hours separating us from noon.

I knew that leaving meant I wouldn't be able to be with Aragorn as much as I wanted but I needed to go now.

Legolas is impatient @ 01:45 a.m.
Saturday, March 15, 2003

I think Boromir made Legolas feel ashamed or something because he immediately suggested that we leave Lórien at once.

Legolas, we can't leave just right now. We have to wait until the others are ready. But we'll leave today, so everyone has to be ready by noon at most. I said.

I think Legolas will maybe be angry at me, as he packed our stuff last night, but I think the hobbits are a bit forgetful, so they might want to pack something else. And we have to talk with the Lord and Lady before leaving their land. And thank them for their hospitality.

Aragorn will wait for the others @ 06:31 p.m.
Friday, March 14, 2003

Galadriel looks at Celeborn with sorrow in her eyes. She nods silently and takes his hand. She mentions the gifts to him and how she wants to personally give them to the Fellowship.

About Arwen, it is a shame she has left in such a disposition, but the new love born will benifit the future in many ways, but at this present time; with Arwen's heart broken, supposidly for all eternity, it is hard to remember that. But Galadriel puts on her usualy soft smile, the one that always seems a little sad.

Galadriel tries to look to the future @ 05:03 a.m.
Friday, March 14, 2003

It was surprising. I 'almost' forgot about eating, but don't be silly! I sat there for a second and looked at Merry as he giggled. What's his problem? I took a bite of my bread! Yum. "This elven food it great!", I said outloud, but at the same time, everyone started talking. Gimli said, "No worries for me I guess. Not that I wasn't on it. I have very good noticing sense"...something like that. Hey! It was hard to listen to anything when you have all this food in front of you and no body is eating them...and all your have to do is reach out...OH YUM! I picked up four loafs of eleven beard and ate them in a heart beat as I talked. I wasn't bothered about the Aragorn/Legolas thingy, I mean, it explains stuff. I smile. Aragorn talked with Boromir after his "speech." Good lad, I think. Understandable...at times. Then Legolas stood up and looked around after he said that "We must leave"....I quickly stood up, hyper i guess, "Leave? Leave now? Leave N-O-W, now as in Lothlorien? I guess we must, but if we must, where would we go, when would we go? Of course, now, but NOW! Kick an orcs butt these eleven breads are sure sugar infested, hyper man! Leave now! Merry, pass me another bread pls?"

Pippin and elven bread @ 02:12 p.m.
Friday, March 14, 2003

I was walking when I came upon Haldir and Galadriel.
I'm sorry to interrupt but I need to speak with Galadriel
Haldir nodded his head and began to leave,I walked over to Galadriel.

There is much I'd like to discuss with you many things have been going through my head,but the fellowship is leaving and I would like to speak with them before they leave, shall we go and bid them farewell?

Celeborn speaks to Galadriel @ 12:01 a.m.
Friday, March 14, 2003

I was really touched by Frodo and Sam's reactions but I must admit I wasn't astonished by Boromir's. Shouldn't love be more important that the fact we are two males ? Did the Men really lose all hopes that they even don't believe in love anymore ?

Boromir said he didn't wish to comment on it anymore. Fine for me. I then looked at Gimli and he avoided my eyes. It made me feel sad. We were just beginning to be friends and it was like if everything was finished already.

I pushed my untouched plate away. A strange agitation was starting to spread into Lórien.

It's time for us to go I simply said.

Legolas wants to leave now @ 11:49 p.m.
Thursday, March 13, 2003

Frodo and Sam were really nice to accept our relationship so easily. I feared no one would. But I was wrong, Hobbits may be old-fashioned, but they are very nice people. I guess that as our friends, they want us to be happy.

Boromir, on the other hand, openly expressed he was uncomfortable with the situation. I guess he, like everyone else, has been educated that male/male relationships aren't good.

We didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable, Boromir... We hadn't really talked about telling others about this, but I guess it was a good idea after all... But please don't let this deteriorate our friendship nor our mission. I said to him.

Aragorn doesn't want Boromir to feel uncomfortable @ 04:31 p.m.
Thursday, March 13, 2003

Everyone seemed to be happy about the new 'couple' within the fellowship...I was a bit surprised for I used to think the Hobbits were oldfashioned. Phew. I coughed to get the others' attention and said:
"Well, it was me who actually discovered Aragorn's and Legolas' relationship and I feel quite uncomfortable. I don't know if they had planned to announce it or not.
I thought about the whole thing and - well, it's none of my business. It's their decision. I won't comment on it anymore."

What a dull speech...T_T; But what else should I have said. The Hobbits grinned and Gimli nodded in a satisfied way (for one second I had the impression that he was about to pet my head and say "Well done, my lad!").

Boromir talks @ 05:56 p.m.
Thursday, March 13, 2003

Strider's and Legolas' announcement was rather surprising. Even though I knew they were really close friends, like brothers, I never imagined they would love each other in that way. I didn't say anything at first, but Merry giggled. Boromir and Gimli looked ashamed/disguested.

Still, it's really nice to see two people in love at times like these. I'm happy for you Strider and Legolas. I said and smiled at them. They both deserve to be happy. I hope they survive this whole Ring affair.

Well, if you love each other, it's better than if you always fought or else, no ? It's ok for me as long as we go to Mordor and destruct the Ring so we can return home. I heard Sam saying. Good old Sam... Most looked at him strangely, but I just smiled at him. I wish I were as optimistic as him as to think to go back home...

Frodo is happy for Aragorn and Legolas @ 03:53 p.m.
Wednesday, March 12, 2003

Strider and Legolas in... in... love ? Wow ! I never imagined that ! But, well, it explains their strange behaviour since we left Imladris. And the laughter in their tent last night, and Gimli and Boromir's heads this morning. They probably stumbled on them or something.

We, the Hobbits, looked at each other, none of us didn't really know how to react. But Pippin, or was it Merry, giggled. So we all started to talk at once and Legolas looked kinda astonished or scared.

But, er, you're two boys... I said during a second of relative silence. Indeed Strider answered with a gentle, amused smile and when he looked at Legolas, who was laughing softly, his eyes softened. He seemed truly happy.

Well, I shrugged, if you love each other, it's better than if you always fought or else, no ? It's ok for me as long as we go to Mordor and destruct the Ring so we can return home.

Everybody looked at me strangely but Mr. Frodo, Strider and Legolas smiled at me in a very touched way.

What ? I asked, preparing myself a new slice of this really nice Elfish bread.

Sam thinks it's ok @ 09:57 p.m.
Wednesday, March 12, 2003

Arwen, gone ? Probably for Imladris, as Aragorn thinks. It's certainly the best for her, to stay there with her father, in the quietness of the eternal autumn.

So they all know now. They didn't say a thing at first. Gimli was playing with the hem of the tablecloth, Boromir looked very disturbed and disgusted, the Hobbits exchanged interrogative gazes but I'm sure I heard one of them giggling.

I quickly looked at Aragorn. He was disappointed and sad, in a way, I could see it. I was about to add something when they all started to talk at the same time. That was scary.

Legolas sweatdropped @ 11:28 p.m.
Tuesday, March 11, 2003

Ok, so I guess after Legolas poking me in the ribs we really can't hide our love anymore. I saw Gimli trying to run away, but I asked him to stay. He looked nervous or something. Boromir looked quite disgusted and refused to even look at us.

My friend... Legolas and I... We... well... I started when Gimli suddenly interrupted me and said Arwen had left.

She left ? Maybe she's going back to Rivendell, with her father... I said hopefully, then I continued. This brings me back to what I was saying... Legolas and I love each other... That is probably why Arwen left... I said.

Silence from everyone. Boromir still looked away, and Gimli still fidgeted as if unsure to comment or not. Then suddenly everyone started talking at once.

Aragorn told them @ 03:55 p.m.
Tuesday, March 11, 2003

I woke up and went to our normal breakfast table in the middle of two beautiful & tall Lorien trees. The food was different, more elven this time. I guess they wanted us to remember Lorien...how could i forget? I ate hungrily. I didn't sleep much last night. No...the Legolas/Aragorn thingy didn't bother me, cause it was just my mind playing games...right? RIGHT! I was just about to really convince myself when Legolas and Aragorn came to the table. Boromir looked extremely disturbed and turned his head instantly...bad sign. I took a peice of elven bread and started chewing, when I suddenly dropped it. I looked around in an embrassased expression and saw Legolas looking at me. He poked Aragorn's ribs and said something in elvish. He looked at Legolas in this weird look, like he normally did with Arwen. Odd. My stomach started to churn and I stood up. "Ahem, I'm going to...pack...again, check actually," I stood up and was about to leave when Aragorn said to me, "No Gimli, sit down, please." I hesitated then shrugged... "OK boss," as I sat and listened to Boromir mumble. I took a bit off the elven bread again, but put it down on my plate and looked around. Silence...even the hobbits were silent. I am not used to this silence, so before I could stop myself I smiled and said, "So...I heard Arwen left Lorien today!"

Gimli is more disturbed than he thinks @ 11:29 a.m.
Tuesday, March 11, 2003

Arwen feels her grandmother’s arms on her shoulders, trying to console her, but nothing can reach her heart now; never, because it is broken. She covers her face and tells her grandmother to leave her, speaking softly and gently to her. Galadriel looks at her with worry and slowly leaves her, going to Haldir thinking that, maybe what she foresaw isn’t going to happen, that maybe it will end in flames.

Arwen removes her hands from her face and walks over to the mirror looking at her face. There are dark circles under her eyes and her eyes are red from crying. Her hair is very tangled and there are a few bits of dirt on her face. She feels like breaking the mirror, but instead goes to bathe. After the bath she sits in front of the mirror, holding her dagger. She looks down at it and brings it to her hair slicing it off. She sets down the dagger on the table and then sets down her hair. She looks into the mirror again. Her hair is now to her mid back. She ties it back and feels a kick in her stomach, her expression softens and she looks down at her slightly bigger belly. She rubs her belly and continues to ready herself. She wears the clothes of an elven man, the long dresses and other clothes of the women, too troublesome. She gathers her pack and goes to the stables, not wanting to see any other creature for al long, long time. Unfortunately, her wish is not heard. She finds Laria. Her friend is shocked at her appearance and opens her mouth to speak, but Arwen silences her. She mounts her horse looking at her packs and takes the bow from Laria and slides it over her shoulder and sheathes the sword at her side.

Namaarie… [farwell]

Laria begins to cry and sinks to her knees in sorrow that her friend has gone. She now knows that the rumors of Aragorn loving another are true. Why did he have to do this to Arwen of all people? The most gentle of them all…

Arwen rides off to the South @ 02:47 p.m.
Monday, March 10, 2003

I felt SO embarassed after Boromir stumbled on us and saw Aragorn kissing me. I think I never blushed so much in my entire life than I did at that moment ! And I don't understand why it made Aragorn laugh.

So we decided to tell our friends about our love before the departure. I fear their reactions. I really do. I know they all like Arwen a lot but I don't know what they can think abour this kind of relationship between two males... I just hope it won't degrade anything in the Fellowship. Aragorn told me to not worry and we fell asleep.

We woke up early but very rested. The day was cold but clear, the sky very blue above our heads. We dressed quickly and left the tent. The others were already awake and taking breakfast.

We sat with them and Boromir immediatly turned his head away from us. Gimli looked embarassed too. I poked Aragorn's ribs softly.

Lle nyara sen... [You tell them...] I whispered.

Legolas blushed a lot @ 10:08 p.m.
Monday, March 10, 2003

On my way back to my tent I met Gimli...I wanted to tell him everything about the two perverts, but I found no words...I can only remember that I stammered something like ...yuckier than yucky *gasp* stuff like...*gasp* Oh damnit! EW!. God! Usually I am very good at talking, but...Damit! I won't ever be able to look them in the eyes again. Bah! >_<

I crouched on my bed, biting my nails and thought of what to do next...

Boromir is still shocked @ 01:42 p.m.
Monday, March 10, 2003

My last day in Lòrien was the happiest one in my life. During those last hours, I even forgot the quest. It feels so wonderful to be in Legolas's arms.

We didn't exactly plan on keeping our relationship a secret from the other Fellowship members, but we hadn't told them anything yet. Boromir found out about us, I think he wanted to tell me something, but he caught me kissing Legolas and ran screaming as if he'd seen a ghost. I insist he's a weird Man...

Anyway, Legolas and I reached the agreement to tell the rest (if Boromir doesn't do it first) of the Fellowship about us, after all, they're our friends, and if we can't trust on them, then why bother on keeping the Fellowship together at all. Unless something else happens between now and tomorrow, we'll tell them when we leave Lòrien.

After that, we kept talking for some hours into the night, and then we fell asleep in each other's arms.

This morning, I feel very rested and refreshed, even more so than all the days we spent in Lòrien. I wish we didn't have to continue on our way to Mordor, much less without Gandalf. I wish we could just stay together, Legolas and I. But the future of Middle Earth is more important.

Aragorn is ready to leave @ 08:17 p.m.
Sunday, March 9, 2003

I had fun during dinner around the fire listening to Legolas sing his elvish songs, and I would have sang some dwarfvish pop songs, but when I was about to sing, I promise I saw Legolas shake his head on me to stop me. I mean, I wasn't that bad a singer, but I guess...I'm not that good. *rewind* Did I just say that? Nah...Wimpy Elf. But he's not entirely right...*rewind* um...*rewind* I'll stop. Anyway, I am walking to my tent to get some head & pillow, when Boromir comes running in to me! "Hey! What are you digging?", I ask him. He stopped, and looks disgusted and scared in a way, then he looks at me and gives me a confused look. Humans..."What happened?", I muttered out loud. "Yuckiness! *gasp* Even...yuckier, than yucky *gasp* stuff like...*gasp* Oh damnit! EW!", he spluters and runs away. Oh?...What's his problem? Aside from his other ones...I shrug and go into deep thought about the next day when we leave...I walk into my tent and open it...OOPS! Wrong tent. Sorry Aragorn and Legolas sleeping together, I think. I walk to my tent and FREEZE. Did I JUST see what I saw? *rewind* NAH!!! I go back to sleep very disturbed...

Gimli and his *rewind* habbit @ 07:53 p.m.
Sunday, March 9, 2003

Finally; the last day in Lothlorien is over, I can't wait to move on. I hate sitting around doing nothing (the rest of the fellowship seems to like that). Well, I felt kinda bad for Aragorn, because I treated him so rude the day before. Maybe he really wanted to be nice and wasn't suspicous at all! I should stop being so damn paranoid. I decided to drop by at his tent to apologize and talk a little.

When I arrived at the tents, I couldn't remember which tent was Aragorn's, so I sticked my head into the first tent I came by. But it wasn't Aragorn's tent, it was the hobbits' tent. When they saw me, they immediately attacked me with their mini-swords (I think they wanted to impress me with their newly acquired sword fighting skills...*ehehehe*) but Merry even cut my leg! I cried with surprise and stumbled backwards, but when they came out to help me, I just told them it was only a flesh wound (aww...it hurts!) and went on. The next tent definitely was Aragorn's, because it was the most beautiful one of all (the damn Elves prefer him, no doubt! Bastards...). I strode inside and wanted to start my speech when I saw Aragorn and Legolas cuddled together and...(man, I'm traumatised!) KISSING! *ugh* I turned around quickly and rushed out of their tent.

Why does this have to happen to ME? TT_TT

Boromir's bad day @ 11:21 a.m.
Sunday, March 9, 2003

I looked back at Aragorn and felt my heart melt. I feel so good with him. For the moment, all I need is some quiet time with you before we go... I answered with a smile.

I agree with you... Aragorn said before kissing me. So we stayed all the day together, just cuddling, talking and resting. That was nice, warm and peaceful.

We finally decided to go out to have dinner with the rest of the Fellowship. We spent the evening with our friends, around a bright fire, and I sang for them. Old Elfish songs my Mother had taught me.

The Hobbits went to bed first. Then Gimli and Boromir left too. Aragon and I also returned to our tent and went to sleep together.

Legolas spent the day with Aragorn @ 10:33 p.m.
Saturday, March 8, 2003

Mr. Frodo, Merry, Pippin and I spent our last day in Lórien packing and walking around the woods. Boromir was pouting in his corner and Gimli preparing his axe, grinning and always saying Eheheh... Eheheh.... I have always known that Dwarves were strange persons !

Strider and Legolas stayed in their tent almost all the day, coming out only for the dinner. They probably were preparing our way. Though we heard them laugh from time to time. Men and Elves are strange people too. Really.

I'm wondering where is Arwen. I was used to see her around Strider these last days but she has disappeared since yesterday. I hope she is alright and that we'll see her again before leaving.

Sam is ready to leave @ 07:18 p.m.
Saturday, March 8, 2003

I sighed. Things didn't go well with Boromir. I was just trying to be friendly, I mean, I was concerned about him, as I am to lead the Fellowship now. But he thought I was suspicious of him, snapped at me, and left again. I really don't understand the man.

When I returned to the tent Legolas had already done my pack. It was really nice of him, though it feels weird, as I've gotten used to pack my own things and all. I must thank him.

I was going to do just that, but I guess that Legolas saw my worried expression or something, because he wrapped his arms around me and said I could always rely on him. Then he started to gently massage my neck and I started to relax.

Mmmmmmmm... Thank you, Legolas... And thanks for packing up all my things... You can also count on me, for whatever you need, I will do it... Anything... I said and turned to look into his eyes.

Aragorn relaxes @ 05:28 p.m.
Friday, March 7, 2003

I let Aragorn and Boromir talk together and went back to the tent. I know that Boromir doesn't appreciate my presence that much. I can feel it.

My pack was ready so I started to prepare Aragorn's, folding his clothes carefully before putting them in the bag. I didn't know if he would appreciate but I needed to do something to put the thought of his son in a forgotten corner of my mind.

I was ready and seated on my bed when Aragorn came back. He looked worried. He sat next to me and I wrapped my arms around him. Things probably didn't go very well with Boromir.

Aragorn... You know you can rely on me. If you need my help or anything I can give to you, just ask. I said, gently stroking the back of his neck to relax him.

Legolas thinks massage is good @ 11:54 p.m.
Friday, March 7, 2003

New layout AND new icons ! XD I hope you all will like them ! ^__^

New archive is here.

Eärwen @ 11:46 p.m.
Friday, March 7, 2003